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I can tell it's going to be one of those nights when I can't get to sleep until some ungodly hour, so I'm going to cosy up with Northanger Abbey. :)
I haven't read it in ages. It's like meeting an old friend again, you remember why you love 'em.
Jane Austen is just an amazing writer. I have all of her books. And loads more of the "classic" women writers.
Tried reading Wuthering Heights again.....it didn't work out.......my brain ran off and left me all alone to figure out what in the HECK was going on in that book. I gave up. And, I had this song stuck in my head. 0.o
I'm just chillin', drinking a few beers and whatnot. Reading some fanfics, which, I will NOT give you the link to because you'd cart me off to the nearest mental institute and it'd totally ruin how you think about certain characters in a certain show. Heh. It's not for young'uns to be reading.
It kinda makes me want to write some more fanfics of my own, but I don't know if I should or not. The website I was (when I wrote them) was great, but you got so much pressure for updates over and over again it left me burned out.
Currently sitting and drinking my third beer, so excuse me if my english deteriorates over this entry.
First, I'm watching a film called Skulls, or something. It's got Joshua Jackson, Hill Harper and Will Petersen in it.
That's right!!!! Hawkes and Grissom in the same film!!!!! :D *csi geek moment* But, Griss has a southern accent in this, and it don't seem right somehow.
Last week at work next week. :D So happy. Todays shift was amazingly long and annoying. People are stupid. And need to be shot. In the face.
Also, I saw the new batman film. Pissed off, because, even though I like Batman, I wasn't too keen on spending near three hours in a cinema. And, I was that close to the front I think I have a permanent curvature of my spine. But then....Heath Ledger appeared. Oh Lord In Heaven. He was simply amazing. No words can describe it. My advice? GO SEE IT NOW!!! But pee first. ;) The time flew by. :)
Off to sleep now....I might be on for a while tomorrow, as I'm home alone, my mums away and I'll have nothing else to do. Other than watch The Orphanage. I'm making my dad rent it for me ;)
I start my job on 11th August. :) Apparently someone else who was at my interview is starting then, so we can be newbie's together. I'll try and get over my I-Hate-People thing and be friends. It doesn't help that I'm about ten years younger than everyone else that works at the lab lol.
So, tonight, I'm handing in my notice at Tesco. WOO-HOO!!!! No more serving mentally retarded monkeys!!!. (Seriously.....the intelligence level of the customers is about the same as a stick of celery)
So excited! And hopefully Di will swap her shift tomorrow with me, so I'll be doing 5.30 to 11 am. That means I can go up Lancashire with my mum and see my cousins. :)
It's Emily's funeral tomorrow. Her sister (my best friend) just told me. We have to wear bright colors. Heh, I don't have anything other than the mandatory Goth black in my wardrobe. I'm sure Emily is giggling at that :)
I'll maybe write more tomorrow, but as it is, I'm sleepy and need my bed. Night Night, VR
Borrow a brightly colored scarf or a tie. Accessorizing will do the trick!
:D
00:46 Jul 21 2008 Times Read: 792
Lordy peeps! I still can't believe I got the job! :D I can't stop smiling. It's unreal. :)
Oh.My.Shit! I can buy a sidekick!!!!!!! internet anywhere!!!! :)
I have so much to tell you, especially where I went today, Papillon Hall, Leicestershire, England. (for all my american friends who might wanna google it). But, I'm too tired to write it out now, so I'll do it tomorrow morning.
And, all going well, I should be the proud owner of Battle Royale 1+2 tomorrow. :)
( We tried to convince my Japanese teacher that watching those movies in class was a valid method of revising for the exams) ;)
-_- you...are...EVIL!!!!! Heh, I'm just kiddin. ♥ ya really :)
11:08 Jul 16 2008 Times Read: 848
I'm thoroughly bored, so I've decided to really push myself to try and level up, and eventually get to Sire. I mean, I've been here four years now. I'm lettin' the side down :P
I'm also going to be working on another project too.........I might tell you all about......might not.......Mysterious Crow today :)
Ok. Having set several alarms for myself today, to make sure I got up I was awoken (that the right word?) by the oh-so-lovely Corey Taylor yelling....I mean singing Before I forget. Note to self......s&%$£@g yourself AS you wake up because of the loud noise is NOT a good thing. Choose a more relaxing cd next time.
Anywho, with that out of the way, I've managed to stumble downstairs and fix myself a coffee. The strength of which can only be likened to this emote: 0.o
Yep. And now I'm on the hunt for my Ipod, which has gone missing. I know the damn thing is here somewhere.......just can't remember where I last had it. -_- I'm unable to go into town without it. People see it as an excuse to talk to me. *Oh! no headphones! let's go ask her about our survey!* Bleh.
Right. Before I go all Emo Rant on ya asses, Im'a hook myself up with mo' coffee and some smokes and then find muh Ipod.
I don't know why I was talking like that either. Heh.
Crow Edit: I found my Ipod! the survey takers are saved!!!!!
I have just had the most awesome phone convo in the history of the world ever. :D
chaosbleed decided to call me, which was so nice. He is the only person I'm able to talk to on the phone without babbling too much. :)
We talked about....god knows what.....I remember something about a picnic basket though. That was just a funny mental image. Me and him on his bike....with a picnic basket, complete with bow.
There was lots of laughing. :)
Anyway, I'm off to sleep now. Hopefully. And remember, hijacking your friends phone to call someone hundreds of miles away is ALWAYS worth it, dontcha think, chaosbleed? :)
No, the moth is fine. It buzzzed around confusedly and then flew away. :)
Emily Rose Curnock.
01:30 Jul 14 2008 Times Read: 889
I can't believe you're gone, Emily. Every day I wake up and think it's some sort of joke. I know it's not. At least you're up there, looking down on us with Luke by your side. No arguements you two, ya hear??? :)
I remembered this poem, and thought of you chick. It's true, all of it.
You are gone, and now I wonder
Why it is you must depart.
And even though, you're just a memory
Your spark of life is still within my heart.
No tears or wishing bring you back.
No hope can change this plan of Time.
I must wait, as you go onwards,
Into those Summerlands divine.
The sun is in this world, where you left me.
Rises, shining, then descends.
Setting in the western quarter,
Yet soon to come back up again.
Within your world there is no shadow.
And Love eternal never dies.
I know you're with me every moment,
Even through this brief goodbye.
I'll miss you hunny. Every one will. You touched so many people's hearts in just eighteen short years. God must have wanted a Rose, and he picked you. Emily Rose Curnock. +R.I.P+
I've just been talking to my friend Charlie about our favorite show, Supernatural. I did this pic of Sam and Dean for her in photoshop. It was only a quick one, but it turned out ok, I think. :
I still can't believe Emily is dead. I won't believe it until I see it in black and white...in the newspaper. They'll release the names of everyone who died in the crash. I just keep thinking it's some sort of horrible mistake, or lie. But who would lie about that? *sigh*. She can't be gone. She was younger than me. She had so much to live for. Why did God take her?
The way I've had it explained to me (losing a loved one) is: *God just missed them so much he wanted them to come home to Him. He knows we'll miss them, but they're happy and safe in Heaven, and He will look after them*.
I am so sorry for your loss, although I do know that no matter how many times you hear someone say "I'm sorry" it's not going to make the pain any better. I have lost alot of people within the span of my life...and I am only 16. My aunt pat explained it to me like this:
"Your Grandmother was a good person, that's why God chose her. Why would he pick a thorn when he could have a rose?"
I hope that makes sense...any way, you know that if you need to talk I am here to listen.
Its always hard to believe someone has passed away. My younger cousin just got killed about two months ago. Its still hard to believe it. When I go to his grandmother's house its odd not to have him around trying to make everyone laugh.
I've never had anyone explain to me why a person gets taken away. And I have lost so many family members in my lifetime. So I have no quote to give you.
Sometimes god takes away the young ones so others won't take their life for granted and waste it away. Thats what I always thought.
I am sorry to hear about your loss. Don't think about how she died, but think about all the good things she and you did and shared to the very end. I am sure she will be dearly remembered.
13:36 Jul 10 2008 Times Read: 977
I can't believe it. My friend just told me her sister and her sisters' boyfriend were killed in a car crash early this morning. Emily was only 17. How could this happen?
I wanted to try and do another image in photoshop. I know what I want it to turn out like, it's just finding background images and things. Hmmm. I think I'll have to turn on my HIM playlist....get inspired.....yeah.......the photo is of Ville anyway, so kinda appropriate ;) Oh, and I need to find a nice font as well.............Wish me luck. :)
I love the last one. Very nice. You are going to have to teach me some of your tricks. ;)
14:14 Jul 08 2008 Times Read: 997
Right. Today's plan. Go up the shops, buy coffee and chocolate-y goodness, eat said food, run a bath, relax, then try to finish up the photo I'm making. :)
Thank you, my feather fluffing, sqwaking friend. ;)
Photoshop!!!!!
00:33 Jul 08 2008 Times Read: 1,018
Good God I love the trail version of photoshop CS3!!!!!! I will have to buy it, somehow. There are LOADS of images I can make!!!! especially since I have some experience of using cs2.
New avatar, here I come!!!!!
*geeks out*
I personally blame CountessMoon and Morrigon for my photoshop obsession........♥ you both for inspiring me :)
They're both really good with working with pictures, I wish I had some sort of photoshop program lol.
Stoopid
21:00 Jul 07 2008 Times Read: 1,021
I wanted a coffee, and was sure I made one a a little while ago. Couldn't find it, so I made a fresh cup, only to find the one I'd previously made next to my seat. Moral of the story- always turn the lights on! lol.
Now off to send a message. This has me quite petrified. Miss Emmy.....I had to get some courage before I messaged him! lol. She'll know what I mean.
I have a load of things to be doing, but I just don't feel like it. *bleh*. Cleaning and stuff like that. Going into town, sorting out my JSA.
Also.......I want your opinion on something, dear journal reader. I received this e-mail today, from the admin woman at the hospital. Mum says it sounds like she's letting me know in a round-a-bout way that I've got the job. What do you guys think?
Hi Rebecca
Unfortunately at this time I have not received Occupational Health Clearance for you, so I am unable to send an offer letter.
As soon as I receive Occupational Health Clearance I will be in a position to send you an offer letter.
Regards ***** *****
I'm not sure what to think....I want to wait until I get that offer letter in my hands.....but it does sound promising though.
I think the charity auction that's going on to help people in New Orleans is an amazing thing. So I donated $37.95 altogether. An exact amount you might say, but I was going to donate a year pm too, but I don't know if Cancer would say yes or no. Heck, I'll message him about it anyway and see what he says. If it's a yes, I'll donate it plus the money I already have done.:)
ChaosBleed is ALIVE!!! Heh. After much panicking, and Angelus (bless him) calming me down, I've found out he's a-ok. Just unable to use the interwebby (his word useage). * resumes happy dance*
I was thinking about asking my new manager if she'd let me swap my Saturday shift to a Thursday instead. That way I wouldn't have to stumble through Saturday so god-damn tired I fall asleep in the fruit and veg section of the store. Hehe. It's kinda hard getting home at twelve p.m. (when we've had a very busy shift) and then getting up at nine a.m. the next day for work. Bleh.
Luckily, Ed is on tonight, so we'll be out by eleven fifteen. He's so cool. Picture Michael Myers in build and height (i.e. fuckin' huuuuge) but a bunny-wabbit. :)
For some reason any potential shoplifters run away when they see him ;)
Still waiting to hear about that job at the hospital. Hopefully soon I'll get some news. And then I'll have more money than I know what to do with. :D
My first planned purchases are going to be:
Sidekick ( I read Imagesinwords' journal, and she's got me hooked on the idea of getting one. *smiles*)
Photoshop Cs2. Because CountessMoon and Morrigon make such amazing pictures, it's inspired me to try and make my own. (Though they'll never be as good as theirs)
New laptop. Nothings wrong with the one I've got, but I want one with more memory on it. And one that will actually let me play my damn games I've bought, only to find they won't work on this one I have at present.
Uhm.....what else? Lemme think.....me and my friend were talking about buying or renting a flat together. She agrees we both want to move out of our parents houses.....but are too freaked to live alone. I'd like to live alone but there is the strong possibility of me talking to myself more often. Heh.
A lifetime membership here. That is an abseloute must. And probably the only way I'll get to Sire :P
Maybe a holiday somewhere.....like Italy.....Romania.....somewhere I've always wanted to go.
There's gotta be loads more things I can;t think of right now, but that I will have by the time I post this entry lol. Oh well.
I did find out there's an Open University course that would enable me to get a degree whilst working, so there's that base covered. I'm not going to get all of those things at once, however. ;) I'm sure I will save up for a house, and future kiddies I may have, but I wanted to have fun for now. I'm only 19! roflmao.
Ewwww.....
00:21 Jul 04 2008 Times Read: 1,065
I can smell something that's like really old, really funky cheese.
Right. I'm sick and tired of getting mistaken for a rather effeminate boy, so I have decided to grow my hair. It's been short for well over a year, and I miss how it used to look.
So, here and now, I pledge to gorw it out, and not cut it all off, even when it gets to that crappy in between stage that makes me look like I've cut it with hedge clippers.
And I want all of you to help me. If ever I mention " I might cut my hair..." I want you all to tie me down and poke me with sporks. Ok? Good. Old me, here I come.
12 ish more "VR" days and my time spent will be up to Sire level. Page count needs.....well............quite a bit more. Like 50,000 +.
Nearly there. It'd only be my post counts letting me down, coz so many of the got deleted in the forum thing.........anyway I'm going to continue watching Gossip Girl now.
Mom was saying to me, I need to do something with myself. Study, get a full-time job, anything.
So I went onto the Open University website, and got really quite excited about the degree course in History. It's perfect for me. And you don't need any qualifications to take it. You can study around work and family life, which means if I get this job at the hospital, I can still study. And apparently I qualify for the maximum financial support too.
Ok. First off my plan is to have another coffee and cigarette, and then brave the horrible wind and rain to go to the shops. When I've come back looking like a bedraggled mouse, I'll answer all messages.
So incredibly bored right now.......so bored I'm attempting to sing like Serj Tankian. Yep......that's going down well. Even my cats are lookin' at me funny. 0.o
"sigh" Don't know what else to say. Jazzed up my MySpace profile. I hardly ever go on there, so I don't know why.
Right. Beer and finding random crap on youtube in what Im'a do now.
Unless a certain someone comes online to at least let me know if he's ok.....I hope.....
Someone PLEASE tell me how to do a transparent background in my journal!!! Damn things drivin' me crazy. I almost got it right once. Well........it was blindingly red, but it was nearly getting there. Someone just gimme the code. Please?
*sigh* Well, until then, at least I can play around with funky fonts ;) This one may seem familiar because it is the font used by:
Currently at my friends house, using her pc while she showers. I have a few plans of what I'd like to do with this here journal, when I get home. I think it's time for some spring cleaning. And also to learn how to do the transparent background thing without the WHOLE DAMN PAGE going red, lol.
Yeeeeeesssss, so with that in mind, I might take my leave. My dad should be here soon to pick me up anyway.
Either someone just knocked on the door or Emilie is out of the shower. Gonna go investigate. ;)
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